Easton’s Delivery and Funeral
When I found out I was pregnant for the first time, I was terrified! I did not know what to expect, but I was also so excited! Easton’s due date was St. Patty’s Day, but from day one I told everyone he would be a Valentine’s baby instead. On February 16, 2013, Easton was born. Earlier that day I felt weird, so my husband and I went to the hospital. When the nurse was conducting an ultrasound, she said she was having difficulty and had the doctor come take a look. When the doctor came in, she asked if we had ever had a hard time finding his heartbeat before, and we said, “no, he is very active..” After what seemed like forever, the doctor blatantly told me that there was no heartbeat. Dazed and confused, I immediately told her to do an immediate C-section and to get him out so he could be saved, but she told me he was already gone. Her words still sting to this day. I begged for yet another person to look, so they called in someone else. While that third person was coming, I begged God to save Easton, that I would do anything and that I knew he could perform miracles. I told God, “imagine how many hearts would be opened to you if they knew you saved him; if they knew he was dead and you breathed life into him again.” When the third person came to the room to have a look, I eagerly waited to see if God had answered my prayer. He did not.
The next several hours are somewhat of a blur to me. I made Joey call our family, and I can still hear my mom screaming into the phone. I received an epidural and I remember joking with the nurse who gave it to me, telling her I felt like a robot with this huge thing in my back…I don’t know if she knew that my baby had died. I also remember asking for a chaplain to come into our room to pray with us, and no one had told him about our baby because he was going on and on about how scary it is to have kids but in the end it all works out…But what about when it doesn’t work out?
When I was delivering Easton, Joey was such a phenomenal coach to me. He held my hand and gave me such encouraging words of comfort. I asked if I could watch Easton being born, but then once his face started to appear, I didn’t want to look anymore. I knew I would lose it and I needed as much strength as I could muster to make it through those final pushes. Delivering Easton was one of the most beautiful moments of my life…I delivered an angel. He was so handsome and perfect. Joey and I still reminisce of his build; he had a broad chest, long arms, and big hands.
Shortly after Easton was born, my cousins arrived (they drove 7 hours as soon as they heard the news). Chelsea, Curtis, and Michael stayed by our side and were such a comfort to have (read more about Curtis and why I named Weston after him, here).
A photographer who volunteers with an organization called Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep took pictures of Joey, Easton, and I at no charge, and I will forever cherish these precious moments.
Since Joey and I were in the military life and would be moving around, we wanted to keep Easton with us. We also really wanted our family to meet our first son. Therefore, we held an open casket funeral in Arizona, and then had him cremated so he could go back with us to our home. Easton sleeps on my nightstand, and protects his little brother, Weston, when he sleeps.
Easton is my first son, and I will think of him every day. He has made me into a more caring, selfless person, and he has taught me to trust in the Lord. I have more faith than I can put into words, knowing that I will see Easton again in Heaven. When I think back to when I was bargaining with God while I waited for the final ultra sound, I know now that a multitude of people have been touched by the Lord through Easton’s story. I can proudly say that Easton has led more hearts to be opened to Christ than I could ever hope to do myself.
Joey and I sponsor a boy through World Vision who shares Easton’s birthday. We are so happy to help a child and his family overcome poverty. I have since become a volunteer child ambassador to help find others who would like to sponsor children through World Vision. If you would like to make a difference in this world, please go to this link to view children who need you today.
We also started an organization called Easton’s Project where we raise money to build water wells across the world, since unclean water is the number one cause of child deaths in third world countries.
Easton has left a huge legacy, and it is one of love, caring for the poor, and helping the sick. Easton is truly a child of God, and I am so proud to be his mama!